Heck, i need a life

When will I ever have my own life?
Do whatever I wanted?
Be whoever I wanted?
Live a life that i dream of?

I know it is now, i know that we have to chase after our dreams, i know, i know, i know, if it's not now, when then? I know, i know, I KNOW !

but i feel so tied down, so many commitments, so many things that i cant just be "don't care la".....

well, atleast i have all that i have now, but im not gona give up dreaming, im not gona just let it be as it is, im not gona just sit and wait for things to happen, im gona go after it, im gona aim for it and im gona get it ! (ofcuz in a right way)

Updates of July & August

super lots of things happened and im just too lazy to sit down n update my blog, eventho i have always told myself, "yea man, this is a nice blog topic!" then, reached home, slumber into short term memory state... =P

In july, i have started working as a half permanent in my company, getting more n more work to do, moved to new office, having my own nice brown L-shaped table (which was used by the boss previously, hehe~) and having the air-cond blowing at me straight the whole day, which is why im having flu & cough now (dinosaur voice). Last event of the month of july, my house kena broke in. Nothing much was taken, but i lost my ang pau money from my aunt for my graduation, n a few watches from my parents, the funny thing is, my laptop is still laying silently safe on my table, wide exposed, haha!

In august, i have just had my convocation few days ago, which was also the opening ceremony of my new office, had to missed it lo...

Convocation was ok, many people, pictures taking, receiving gifts from juniors and family, all the pictures were uploaded to facebook by my MUM !! geng leh, my mum does facebook also k =) So, go check it out ya! (by the way, i've just added one of my secondary school math teacher, Pn.Yap, on facebook!!)

latest news, which happened yesterday, i have gotten my new camera, a graduation gift from parents, Canon PowerShot SX 110 IS. It does not have a very attractive outlook, but it's manual function attracted me, cuz i wanted to practice on using & playing around with some manual functions like shutter and aperture. Just to share, here's a picture taken by James (not me instead, paiseh..=P) while playing around with it right after we reached home with the camera.

Cheers~!

Feeling from songs

i've just listened to 'Tear drops on my guitar' by Taylor Swift, i know it's quite an outdated song, i think it's the song that popularize Taylor Swift, but i've really gota say i like it alot, not because its lyrics sings out the i-have-the-same-experience-before kinda thing, but it's the way she put her feelings into words and the music along with the lyrics brings out the feelings at the same time when she sings it, while i listen to this song, i can feel how she felt when she first wrote the song (i think..), i wonder if i can even speak to ppl in a way that they can feel how i feel...

anyway, besides 'Tear drops on my guitar', some other songs were very country feel type, hehe, she was known as the new country pop queen, agree~!

There was another country-like song 'My Worst Fear' by Rascal Flatts, i was attracted it becuz i had a suprise listening to it from beginning to the end, the lyrics i mean, and the story he was singing, it was quite sad if u listen to it properly n feel it, but anyway, the same thing, was impressed =)

Music and songs, i believe, is one of the best ways to express feelings, agree with me? =)

Internship finishing~

as i have blogged before of my 1st encounter with internship, now, after almost 3 months, it's ending =)
i wouldn't say im feeling happy bout it, cuz it was quite a good experience tho, hehe, getting to know more ppl and different ppl, seeing how the oil & gas industry works and experiencing many many other things, starting to feel like a working person adi, hehe, i can kinda predict i'll soon be a workaholic.....
anyway, due to my excellent performance (i hope so, hehe =P), my company is offering me to work as a contract trainee engineer, for 6 months, im stil 'thinking' bout it, which most probably is a yes, hehe!
lets just see what's coming up next in this road that is guided by the precious Light~!

Coffee=Miserable Nite

yea yea patrick, here's my latest update which i coincidentally have one...
i went to Bumbubali for dinner last nite with some old frens and a few more new frens, ate chicken, lamb, squid and pasta. And so smartly i ordered an iced mocha for drink, when i am a coffee-is-so-not-my-choice type of person.... and there goes my nightmare...

reached home around 11pm, lepak around awhile, getting ready to sleep around 12, cuz tmr got work, all done and im on my bed with big wide eyes staring up at my fan whenever i hear any slight little sound... rolled many rounds on my bed, caused so much friction and heat on my bed and i ended up getting up from my bed, turned on my laptop, started playing games til 1am.

tried to get back to sleep again after that, for the whole nite, i dun remember realy getting into deep sleep, awake, doze off, awake, doze off..... till my alarm rang, 7am, gota get up for work....

goodness, was it even a sleep...? anyway, i've made up my mind, never to touch coffee again, whether if it's daytime or at night, phew!

A Thought about Handphones

Everytime i see someone having their pretty designed handphones covered in plastic covers which were said to protect the surface of the handphones from scratches or dirt, i feel ridiculed.

It's like buying a whole new car with nice and shiny paint, which you have spent time choosing the colour and design that you like, and then you wrap all over it with red-pasar-malam plastic bags, just so to protect the car from scratches... and you drive it around just like that....

If so, why buy such nice and pretty car since u like it to look ugly infront of people...? Might as well get an old junk with good engine...

Just a thought, no offence =)

Internship started

today is the 3rd day of my internship, and i have done a simple testing on a relay and started an excel document today, the end.

i practically do internet surfing, chair sitting, reading manual of a big system and goin tru a thick book with notes that i have roughly came across in my 2nd year....
dats all lo till now, haih....

well, i guess this is the usual thing for internship, just hope that i'll have more things to do and more things to learn la