bye kakak~~~~

Last thursday, My dear kakak (maid) went back to her own country, indonesia.. i knew she was going back b4 saturday, so, i came back from hostel on wed, just so i can also sent her off, for the last time, sob sob...
my mum, bro n me sent her to the airport in the morn, after breakfast.. the airport that we went to is not the one with big nice waiting area, sophisticated flooring, good food restaurant, escalator equipped with sensor and canggih carpark... instead, we went to the LCC, for air asia fights. low-cost. limited air-cond. anyway, it was ok la, not too bad tho =)
the feeling that i had was realy a complicating wan.... feel kinda sad cuz she's leaving, and i may not b able to see her anymore again... yet happy for her cuz she's gona go back to her home n meet all her family members after so long =) i really duno wat to say dat time dat can help me to express abit of my feelings... wat to do, im always bad with words, haih... so, i just tok to her s usual lo, joke around here n there, which she's always good at it (i think she sumtimes beat me in joking wei, dun play play !)
while sending her off, i saw always quite a number of indonesians waiting to check in, i was wondering hows their feeling right then, must have been happy, awww..... before sending her off, we prayed together with her, n i ter-saw watery eyes on my mum's face... bt i wasnt feeling any crying mood tho...=)
after all dis sending thingy, reached home, started to miss kakak already, the kitchen is now so quiet (it used to be HER place, always havin sumtin to do there, cook, iron, wash....) wen im alone at home nw, im really gona be ALONE s in alone at home... sob sob sob.... i remember the time wen theres oni me and her at home, whenever i feel bored of my own work or computer, i would always go downstair, into the kitchen, talk talk abit with kakak n tease each other, hehe, those were the time =)
after a few days, i asked my bro whether he misses kakak anot, guess wats his answer, a straight forward, NO...... iisshh....m i the only one missing her ??!! entah la....
stil misses her now, dis is the second time im feeling dis feeling... 1st was the previous kakak, she was also closed to us =) kinda scared to hav to feel dis again for the 3rd time.... =/
anyway, will pray for her n her family, cuz s once i received a sms :
Prayer can go to where i cant and be with those i care without being there =)